Wow, alot has happend here in the past few days, I had another breakdown. I made a silly mistake, why i did it, im not quite sure. I called my uncle Dennis' Number, and listened to his voicemail. That made me break down, i dont know why i did it. i think i just wanted to hear his voice again. It's just so hard not having him in my life anymore and i am trying my hardest to cope with it. but its just so painful. the only one's that can truely understand the hurt are those that knew him like I did. Like the family. Alot of people lose someone all the time, but this is different, this was uncle dennis. and it is different, to know how it feels to lose him can only be known by those who did lose him. But I got through the night, thanks to my daddy. he definately helped me. I love my family so much, words cannot express.

but another thing that happend last night, My best friend/Sister Got engaged. I'm happy for her. but im scared. i dont want to lose the one person that has been there for me through thick and thin. and im nervous that steven is going to take my place =[.

I am happy for her, dont get me wrong, nothing makes me happier than knowing that she is happy. but im just scared.

she is, and always will be. my best friend.

Til the next Blog.

<3stephii