Love is all that matters After All

Everything happens for a reason, i suppose.
and i've come to the conlcusion that i have to smile because it happend, not cry because its gone.
im sure i will still fall out and cry every once in a while, but ive had a few days to myself here lately to just cry and get out Every ounce of what i was feeling about my uncle's death, [thank you daddy and trisha for being there, you have no idea how much it means to me.] I knew i needed to cry, i had felt it coming, and when it came, it came hard. I'm not the type of person who breaks down and cries, and i have to say that is one perrault trait i got, we are all strong willed.
we want to make sure everyone else is okay before we deal with ourselves. for any of my family members reading this, take my advice. because if i know you like i think i do all of you damn perraults have probably yet to fully break down and just cry. Do it. I know it sounds crazy, why? why would u want to cry, because it makes you realize, really realize, yes he is gone. but you know what. You are still here. and he would want us to make the best of it, he loves us all so much. and he wouldnt want us to be sad and crying, but he see's how much he meant to us.
My dad told me that was always a fear of uncle dennis', that he wouldnt be missed enough or that he didnt make a big enough impact in the world. well as we all know, its bogus. and now that hes looking down on us, he sees that. and he is smiling.
All you can do is cry, there will be moments in the day when you feel like crying, just go into a room by yourself and let it out, because ones the tears of sadness happen, then there will eventually come tears of joy. Filled with all the amazing memories that we got to share with him, and we will remember all the love that he gave us.
and thats what really matters.
That time that we did get with him, was amazing. was fun, and loving, everything positive. yes hes gone in the physical sense, but only if you chose to close out those memories does he really disappear. because i know he will forever be in my heart.
I will carry him with me every day of my life.

To all of my family and friends: I love you all, so much. I know ive said this many times recently, but i just have to make it known, so you will ALWAYS know. that i love you. all of you have had such a big impact on my life, and i thank everyone of you for being apart of my life. Even if some of us have drifted away a little bit, you are still in my heart. always and forever.
All i have left, is love to give. so its what im going to do, because love, is all that matters after all.

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